What did Sadie think about becoming a Spectre? I'd it something that meant a lot to her or just another tool?
GOTTA ANSWER THIS BEFORE SLEEP!
she ranged from ambivalent to proud to smug, basically.
she knew it was coming. she could tell just be nihlus even talking to her and anderson acting sketchy and hinting at it.
(she knows anderson very very well and has for many years. although they stay quite professional and emotionally distant, he cuts through her bullshit instantly. he knows her very well, and always has her actions pegged. he sees a lot of potential in her, more than she ever sees, and likely more than she’ll ever strive to achieve. like… he’s really her mentor and helped her out since she was 16 but he never pretended to be her father or crossed professional lines, and she never acted like his daughter. (although to others, it comes off that way. kaidan sees anderson kind of like her dad? and is appropriately kinda scared of him lol?) more like really good friends who just GET each other for so long. they do love each other, but in their own ways. neither were ever very good with emotions and it doesn’t mix well in their job and re. accusations of nepotism, so they keep it professional and semi distant. they mostly playfully insult each other and take swipes to show their affection. it’s an odd relationship, but actually one of shepard’s very few before making friends on the normandy.)
shepard was proud but also knew that she was one of the very few options and the saren thing kinda twisted their arms. she was in the right place at the right time, and they were mostly impressed by her survival instinct, tendency to follow orders with little questioning, lack of personal ties to earth, people or other places, and willingness to work a lot and get the job done out of pure stubborn insistence.
akuze really put shepard on the map, in the council’s eyes, and humanity had been hounding them for years over a human spectre. shepard knows the score, but that doesn’t mean she doesn’t take some pleasure in it. the rights being a spectre grants her are handy and honestly, she just likes staying busy and doing her job. being a spectre helps cut through red tape.
she’s not emotionally invested in being a spectre though. to her, it’s just another step in ranks. something she didn’t particularity desire, but not something she would turn away from either. the freedom with the normandy and command does please her. she becomes used to her spectre status, and eventually attached to it as a facet of herself after a time?
she gets it back in ME2, retains it in ME3, and eventually quits them post ME3 (probably would have failed the physical anyway)
The screenshot was annoying me so I painted over it and now Shepard looks like she’s supposed to, aww yis.
i think i have to go to sleep now, because i have a headache :( hopefully it is late enough that i can just drift off. don’t have asthma or anything last two nights so it shouldn’t be too bad. i’ve gotta get a puffer before i go away so im not uncomfortable, i think.
anyway! i have to go to the next town over for some shopping tomorrow. nana wants certain biscuits ;P and fussy nanas get what they want generally. i am not looking forward to it since driving and parking and sunshine and people and shopping makes me cranky but i am sure you’ll hear my whining about it tomorrow, as usual ;P
grumpy kaidan and shepard is the best kind of kaidan and shepard.
always with the frowning
ugh. i hate shepard’s hair colour most of the time in pictures because she’s emphatically not a redhead. she has dark brown hair, hella dark, like almost black. and i hate that the brown in the CC is so skewed towards red, because she doesn’t have red undertones at all. her hair colour undertones aren’t warm colours, they are cool colours.
so i just got fed up in ME3 and made it black because it was more accurate than that semi red hair blargle.